Of late, Srinath has been away from home - out of town, almost 3-4 days a week and I have been missing him more than Raghav.....just feel very alone sometimes and not having anyone else to share both the day-to-day stuff and thoughts, learnings and other things seem to make it worse. I was voicing my thoughts to Raghav about missing him, when he smiled very nonchalantly at me and said this:
"Amma, do you know what I do when I miss Appa? I just close my eyes and think of him and then I don't miss him anymore......I feel that he is near me.....with me......why don't you try and do the same thing? You will feel better."
I was busy in the kitchen, cooking a meal and lost in my thoughts. After a few minutes, he came back to me from his room and asked me if I had tried to do what he had told me to do. I told him how I was unable to do it. He immediately came up to me and smiled again and said: "Amma...you must not think of him with sadness. You must think of him with happiness as if he is smiling.....then you will feel as if he is here. Try it again!"
I smiled and tried my best again. And I must admit that it did work! How lovely is this feeling.....when you can be the learner and be guided step by step by a small and gentle touch - out of darkness and into light ......happiness unbound!
And today, some days after the above incident, while we were chatting before he went to sleep, I told him again how I missed Srinath as he had been away all week and he said : "Amma, just don't think about it.....when that feeling comes, just think about something else. That is what I do. When I think about Appa, I think about my LEGO or something else. And I don't miss him."
My son had just given me the most important lesson in life of being "detached" and "letting go"! And I had heard a very similar technique shared by a great master just last week, in one of his talks that I had listened to! Wow! I have no words to describe the feelings that churned inside me.....
Children I believe are embodiments of the all-encompassing spiritual energy......for they live in the moment.....completely detached.....aware.....enjoying whatever they are doing to the fullest......
So then, where and when along the way do they lose all this? I wonder......
"Amma, do you know what I do when I miss Appa? I just close my eyes and think of him and then I don't miss him anymore......I feel that he is near me.....with me......why don't you try and do the same thing? You will feel better."
I was busy in the kitchen, cooking a meal and lost in my thoughts. After a few minutes, he came back to me from his room and asked me if I had tried to do what he had told me to do. I told him how I was unable to do it. He immediately came up to me and smiled again and said: "Amma...you must not think of him with sadness. You must think of him with happiness as if he is smiling.....then you will feel as if he is here. Try it again!"
I smiled and tried my best again. And I must admit that it did work! How lovely is this feeling.....when you can be the learner and be guided step by step by a small and gentle touch - out of darkness and into light ......happiness unbound!
And today, some days after the above incident, while we were chatting before he went to sleep, I told him again how I missed Srinath as he had been away all week and he said : "Amma, just don't think about it.....when that feeling comes, just think about something else. That is what I do. When I think about Appa, I think about my LEGO or something else. And I don't miss him."
My son had just given me the most important lesson in life of being "detached" and "letting go"! And I had heard a very similar technique shared by a great master just last week, in one of his talks that I had listened to! Wow! I have no words to describe the feelings that churned inside me.....
Children I believe are embodiments of the all-encompassing spiritual energy......for they live in the moment.....completely detached.....aware.....enjoying whatever they are doing to the fullest......
So then, where and when along the way do they lose all this? I wonder......
Yes, children are spiritual anchors.. this is so beautiful Priya... cherish every word and all this learning, and pass them along to those wandering into this blog...
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